Part 2 - why am I not enough for him?
Becoming pregnant again wasn’t to be so easy, we went through the heartbreak of miscarriage and although very early they were still a part of me. So, when I became pregnant with my second son, I was terrified, it wasn’t the best pregnancy it was so different from my first, I had hardly any symptoms with Connor but this time around was hard.
I spent much of the pregnancy being sick, I was regularly monitored for bleeding which was unexplained. I had a constant fear that something bad was going to happen, though again I didn’t tell anyone how I was feeling. As my bump grew, I developed synthesis pubis dysfunction (SPD), which is a condition that causes pelvic pain as the ligaments become too soft.